Hunger and Control

What is Hunger?


What is hunger? To me it’s the desire to numb out all feeling. If all you feel is that aching twist, than you’re really okay after all.
It’s proving to yourself, that you can do the undoable. Most people can’t make it more than a few hours
without food, and yet you’re determined to go days, push weeks. You must prove this in order to prove
your worth. Your happiness depends on how little you eat, when in fact you feel awful and your mind is
constantly revolving around sight, smell, and imagining “what does that taste like?”
But each day without food adds up, and your weight begins to decrease steadily….and now, it all seems worth it. Each morning you wake up and pop out of bed, tear your cloths off in haste and get on the scale. Is it a good day, or a bad day? Either way, you’d rather be hungry. Hunger implies purity. It implies that your free of your sins. The world is now in order, and you can handle anything, as long as you’re hungry.



What is Control?

Control. Holding on to control is a precious balance. Its listening to the right voices in your head, and
ignoring what everyone around you tell you is best for you. It’s about pushing your limits. It’s about not
giving in no matter how weak you feel, how ever strong the temptation may be.

It’s about redefining your character. You’re only as strong as your state of mind. Control lies in needing
very little, and being able to sustain yourself through sheer willpower. It’s taken to a place where it almost
becomes a superhuman power. “I need nothing, and I will prove it.” And so you do, day after day. Your
body grows weaker, but your mind becomes sharper to make up for what you physically lack.
Control takes on an almost holy significance to you, whether or not you can hold up to it. You’re
determined as hell to try